laurengo.ca

I was going to make an entry in my journal, but I needed an inaugural blog post so why not get my thoughts out here.

I woke up at noon today to work on this WordPress site——wowsers, what a headache! WordPress works well if you’re buying a domain from them, or transferring a domain to them, but I did neither and tried to get it running on a domain from a different registrar. I guess whoever works there decided that no one would ever do such a thing, so the documentation for how to do it is basically nonexistent. I had to piece together the process from bits of reading and watching tutorial videos of different but similar processes.

But that wasn’t even the hardest part. My ADHD riddled brain collapses under the slightest pressure. I’m screwing around with all these settings, all the while thinking “Didn’t I used to know how to do this?”

When I was younger I often enjoyed puzzling out solutions to my tech problems, but as an old crone of thirty-four I want, need, everything to work on the first try. Maybe it’s the short form internet content, the constant barrage of digital information and always being connected that has eroded my patience.

Whatever it is, I didn’t like the effect it had on me. I was agitated, ready to lash out. All because of a stupid website. Maybe there’s other stressors I have not accounted for. In any case, I’ll need to take some time to calm down. This cranky, scattered brain version of me is unbecoming.

-Lauren